on the morning of mothers day 2008 i had one of my famous "nervous breakdowns".... (yay)
later on that day, i went on a 6 hour trek to target with sebastian. my "present" from jonathan was that he would watch the babies while i went to target (which at that time i didnt know how to find and it ended up taking 2 hours to drive there haha) because his mother had sent me a ($25)target gift card for my birthday a couple days prior.
i wandered around target for a while and during so bastian finagled me out of $4, so i had $21 left in my target card i had driven 2 hours to spend.
i decided that the only thing that would make it even half way worth it is if i bought SOMETHING i have NEVER bought before...no toiletries or cleaning supplies or duplicate pajamas or crap from the dollar bins...
so i ended up buying a CREATE YOUR OWN FAIRY TALE book kit. i figured it would maybe cross that "learn how to play even though you are a grown up" thing off the list. (and especially since i never "learned how to play when i wasn't a grown up)
whimsy, man, dig it...
anyhoosies...i had a few bucks left and was NOT going to go back to target anytime soon. so i bought three big pieces of hot pink posterboard (and a neon green one for bastian) in order to somehow MAP OUT MY LIFE on them so i would have a HUGE, HOT PINK DISPLAY OF WHAT WOULD BEGIN TO MAKE ME HAPPY OR MAKE ME FEEL AT ALL IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE (ha!)
now, we all know that i am a granolawoohoo type girl who OF COURSE has read every SELFHELP book in the world and has of COURSE heard and read and even seen in her own life, stories of people who have written to-do lists (both miraculously grand and also small) and lost them and then found them later and they had DONE EVERYTHING ON THE LIST without remembering that they had made the list...
so...at that time, may*, i was still shopping at walmart. i was still smoking and drinking soda. i was living in a house that did not feel like home at all. (and on and on and on)
*things have changed since then!
i sat down the next morning and had ANOTHER (famous) nervous breakdown because i couldnt seem to MAP OUT MY LIFE ON PINK POSTERBOARD, like i had planned.
(HOW WAS I GOING TO CONTROL MY LIFE IF I COULDN'T CONTROL MAKING LISTS?!?!?!?!)
this posterboard got rolled up and taped (by jonathan at some point, its his tape not mine) and put in the spare room which was the JUNK ROOM (the robins egg blue parlor) and we found it day before yesterday when we moved things in order to get the new carpet....(do you know that feelings behind my whole CARPET THING?!?! DO YOU??!!!)
anyhoosies...here it is, folks...the pink posterboarded masterpiece entitled:
THINGS I WOULD NEED TO EVEN START
(start what??!! dear god, steff! what is the what?!?!)
*denotes things that have either been acquired or accomplished thus far (THREE MONTHS= 90 DAYS) later....
enjoy! (its better and kookier and more psychotic on posterboard but you should get the point)
*Floor re-done or recovered
New Front door
(2 out of 4)
Cloth Cover for Side Without Door Under Sink
(3 out of 6)
(2 out of 4)
*Bed (exactly the one he wanted)
(3 out of 4)
*Jonathan committed to yard work
(3 outta 3...+ i am composting and we have a beautiful fire pit)
*Ohio Liscence (voter registration)
Paid off (5 more payments!)
New Plates (expire 2-09 haha)
*Maintainance (oil change, etc)
(3 out of 5)
MISCELLANEOUS STEFFANI BUSINESS:
*Stick with current bill budget
*Find New place to buy formula
*Start Making Bellas Baby Food
*Find New Way About Diapering (partially cloth bella AND found biodegradable disposables)
Wall Fixed On Stairs
Window Replaced in Bedroom
Hunker Down for Winter Before Its TOO late
*Find Hypnotist to quit smoking (didnt need one)
*Find Hypnotist to quit soda (didnt need one)
*get a way to drink water (we are now an 8 gal water/week family)
so...there it is folks. there is so much more blessingwise...but thats the rundown straight from the pink posterboard idea of the centrury.