Our Year Of Living (Beautifully) Without WalMart

Thursday, July 3, 2008

my horoscope for the day (i wish i was kidding, this is the yahoo horoscope)

July 03, 2008

Taurus (4/20-5/20)

A friend who is not nearly as intuitive as you are will insist they are on to some type of conspiracy theory, but you're not so sure. Before you burst their bubble, find out how much research they've done to support their theory. If they are so positive of their guesstimate that they are willing to bet money on it, that's when you step in to be the voice of reason. Help them see things more conservatively. But if you fail to change their mind, don't feel guilty about it.

i cannot hold an outside job

because i go insane and cry...

and yet i give myself ZERO credit for being able and STRONG enough to stay home with these children 24/7/365...

why is that...

tonight i am going mad...just starkraving nuts inside...i want it to be BEDTIME so bad and it is 5:20 pm

i love the kids...i even like the house and i LOVE my beautiful things in it to make this a good life...

on paper everything is ok....

but i have been existing in a malaise that i have wanted to chock up the my old divorce, my new relationship's rocky start, pregnancy, grief that has been ENTIRELY unexpressed about my first husband's death, another pregnancy, a cross country move, poverty, low self esteem, hatred of doing dishes, one son being almost a pre-teen, the other one being TWO WITH A VENGENCE, a new (teething, diaperrash this week) baby, hormones of pregnancy & postpregnancy & new birthcontrol, the sun, the moon, the wind, the rain, the hot, the cold, the government, the internet addiction, the economy, the lack of a positive attitude, the bonetiredness that comes from not sleeping for a couple years, breastfeeding, infidelity, the sugar ants, the carpet being unsafe for human life, the stopping smoking and caffeine, lots and lots and lots of stuff...

but the truth is, i have only myself and my (computer addiction) *ahem* my lack of a postivive attitude, to blame...

i know that all good things will become possible when i BELIEVE that they are good and when i DO THE WORK to IMPROVE my life...

i have just NOT DONE THAT FOR A LONG LONG TIME...

i would LOVE to say i am rusty...

but i am downright atrophied....

what will fix this?

when will i start?

yeah...so thats my pms blog of the day...

i dare you to sit through the whole thing

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

a post on the "more info" section of a youtube vid...i liked it i stole it...

We need people to stand by us so that we can truly change this world, The world is in our hands...
Turn of the TV and spend time with your children or family, Enjoy the beauty of nature, Then prepare for war, its comming wither we like it or not...
good against evil is here now...

I am on the side of Light,The side of balance and greatness
I have givin up everything to fight for a better world, I realized cars and jewelery and money are pointless, Love is far more a greater reward then any sports car I have drove or any worthless gold watch I could buy...
The only thing that fills me with joy anymore is seeing other people around me happy...
You will become more like me once you except whats real and whats fake, the truth is we been brain washed to think material things are most important forgetting about the spirit.

When was the last time you just sat down and breathed....just breathed...
Focus..meditate..Focus on changing this world, Plant a Tree, Thats giving life...
Help a poor man on the street, people who have nothing, we are lead to believe its there fault
NO! its not anyones fault its the systems fault, breaking us and our families.
Our own Government brings in the drugs not the man that is on the side of the street in pain...
Take strangers in under your wings, that are in need of help, dont drive past them as you see them walking.

The world has become so heartless, So cold and colorless everything is grey now,
The life of this planet is dying as is our morals...
Dont follow that path, never give in to them..Fight their plan for you for us..
Stand with me till the end we can fix this world we have the power, And only we can because we are awake, Our brothers and sisters are still asleep but they will awake soon...
until then its up to us to make a difference.
I hope to see you standing next to me when the time comes...

i have crossed the line now

during vietnam they showed this on television.
listen to the guy...
listen to HIM instead of mainstream news...

imagine the reality of this for one minute, please...thank you

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just for a minute, imagine them being charged with war crimes, being arrested for murder, being tried in the public eye and being convicted....

it is as possible for that to happen as it is that their nightmarish powergrab has really and truly happened to US...

imagine the newspaper articles the television news....imagine the reality of evil being punished and true justice prevailing in a world that has been terrorized by THESE evildoers...THESE terrorists....

he is a failed oilman...and he is a failed oilman on a grand scale again...
he is at best j.r. ewing. at BEST...

the bush family and the neoconservative movement (which is all it is in its most weak..it is a movement, which can fail as surely as any movement...) are only as powerful as we LET them be....as we ALLOW them to tyrannize us....

my grandfather was a bartender...therefore in my family of my mother and her siblings and we cousins, and god forbid but just maybe in our children there is a very real strain of alcoholism and drug addiction...

BUSH'S GRANDFATHER (prescott bush) was a NAZI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a NAZI!!!!!!!
so there is a strain of satanism, genocide, evil, and megalomaniacal power grabbing in his children (the first bush) and grandchildren (w) and if you have ever seen the grandchildren they have mostly all been arrested for SOMETHING or other....

there is hope for us all yet...they can crumble a way shorter time than they have built themselves up, these neocons....

they can fall with zero resistance in nine seconds like the towers of the world trade center!
if they want us to believe that...then we can use the analogy against them!
the towers fell because of explosives hidden in them in different floors and wires and webs of charges placed throughout all 110 stories of each building...THAT is what i am attempting to help with!

the big airplanes crashing into THEM (the neocons) will be subpoenas and the AWARENESS of the MASSES of the american public and the world...

hope for the lawyers with the guts to carry all of it out...

pray for the exposure in bits and bits and bits of real, tangible evidence as to the CRIMES these american terrorists have committed against the constitution, the american people, the victims of 9-11, the people of iraq and the world....

they, for all of their evil "secrecy" have been very very sloppy....
the truth is EVERYWHERE...

if you look for an hour, for five minutes, you can see it...

why not put down that remote or that magazine or that cell phone branded with one of the telecom companies that is going to be procescuted for illegal wiretapping and LOOK...and OPEN YOUR EYES and SEE?!

its really kind of fun...especially when sprinkled with hope....its only scary because you are numb...after a while it is not scary anymore, the truth...

but what could be scary is if you refuse to wake up and refuse to care and they are able to prevail more and more with their destructive agendas...

and then you will see that i was right, and it will be too late for all of us...

have you looked at the pictures of my children...
do you have your own children or ever intend to?

WHAT KIND OF WORLD DO YOU WANT TO LEAVE????
WHAT KIND OF WORLD DO YOU WANT TO LIVE IN???
WHAT KIND OF WORLD DO YOU WANT TO CREATE FOR YOUR CHILDREN???

is this it?

seriously...because this is what we have right now...and unless we stop it this (and far worse) is what our children will inherit from US, not from our parents, the failed hippies who gave up....from US... and we will have NO ONE TO BLAME but ourselves for it.

Monday, June 30, 2008

this video made me weep

no shit...i was QUITE EMOTIONAL...
i have watched over 5000 youtube videos...and if i were to have my own youtube oscars, this would be up for one of them.


march on washington dc
july 12 2008

Sunday, June 29, 2008

sebastian just said...

"just say the iraq war ended in july sometime...pick a day"

and i said "july 21"

and he said "nah thats a little too late...say july 16th...george bush would still be president, right? just think of what other wars he would try to go into while he is still the president because he has time"

and i said "yeah, its called iran...they are going to drop bombs on iran"

and sebastian said "or maybe he will go against china or something stupid like that!"

How much are YOU educating the children who are OUR FUTURE about the WORLD that they LIVE in?